So far, so good.

Finally! Accomplishment!

So, these past couple of days have been going pretty good, actually. Tuesday, I had a smoothie, 4 chocolate almond pockies (asain candy) (very tiny binge, but 6 is only 70 calories), and some chai tea (60 calories), Wednesday, I had s little bit more, smoothie, yogurt from one of those little yogurt places, 8 pockies, and chai tea, and today I had a smoothie, 4 pockies, and chai tea. Pretty much all the same things every day. Tomorrow, I'm wanting to fast, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it, so I think I'm just going to have like a smoothie. I love smoothies! I always make really healthy ones at my house that are so good! My favorite is Jamba Juice though.

I think I've lost 5 pounds in the past like 2 weeks because it's been like on and off binging, but it doesn't look like I've lost anything. It's my damn shortness! You can loose 10 pounds and still look the same. I can't put it in to words how much I DESPISE my body. Is it just me? Because every. single. day. I think and think and think about my body and what I can do to make it look better without looking like a short fatass! Ugh, god. I hate it so much. Why can't I be normal like everyone else? Eat regularly, not worry about my weight, be normal height, feel good about myself, and be happy. It seems like everyone has that except me. All my friends are always happy and usually never complain about their weight or height or anything and it's not fair. I want to be happy and normal too! I hate feeling like this all the time..

Well tomorrow is another day for better things to come. (hopefully)

Stay strong!
-Kinsey